Music

My High School Music Teacher (why are these all in capitals, they should be no?), who to me, is/was a genius once said something like this..."Some argue that music is not the notes that are being played, but on the contrary, the silence between the notes." Now, I will never claim to be a philospher, like the girl at my friends birthday party who said, and I QUOTE : "I"M SORTA A PHILOSOPHER" IF SHE WAS ONE? would she not be completely sure of it? But thats the tricky thing with philosophers, they reel you in and make you believe big things, profound things, and then say.. "but i only know i know nothing." then why you wasting my time mang? But seriously. Back to the music...

I have never felt any, any, anyyyy kind of love, and soothing, and comfort more than I do for music. I do love lots of things, I do fall in love with all things day to day. But the one thing i will always know, and always feel profound love for is music. It is the music that releases my suffering. It is the music that is my constant friend. My companion. My soulmate, who does not judge me. Who does not give me bad looks, when I fuck up on something. It is music who holds my hand when I'm scared, and cheers me on when I'm trying to reach a goal. It is music that teaches me, kisses me, loves me, holds me. It is music that surrounds me like a warm familiar breeze. It is music, hand in hand with mother nature, that wraps his/her arms around me, and clenches hard into my soul. Deep inside my soul, to the core of my being. To the core of my existence that even I have not been famiiar with. It is music who knows me through and through. And it knows me the second we meet. and in knowing this, in being assured of this, i will never, ever, eeverrr Be alone.

This past week I have been arriving at the beach in the early morning. Before the morning runners arrive. Before the parking lot is full with cars, bikes, and people. I am there to sit with the Canadian Geese, and I am there to watch the Sun beat in the sky, playing shy behind the clouds. But I want to make sure that anyone reading this recognises I do separate the natural world from music at times. I suppose when I speak about music I should say, not just man made instruments. I speak of the natural world as well. I speak of the sounds of nature. The trees, swaying, flowing, embracing the air with her/his branches. The sounds of a small blue bird picking at his/her food. The sound of the wind, the sound of the ocean colliding with the rocks. The gurgling sound the sand makes when the ocean sinks into it. Those sounds. those sound are music as well. And so- I listen to that music apart from what's playing on my ipod.

A few days ago we went to the Lake. I can't even begin to tell you the serenity. But I'll try! haha! to feel as if nothing, and nobody could ever hurt you. to feel that you would never need to fear that. to feel like you fit in, you belong, hm... we all share that huh? The feeling of wanting to belong somewhere. Well that's the good thing about big bodies of water like the Lake or the Ocean. they speak to us, with compassion and comfort, without judgment, and for those reasons, I can say I feel an incredible sense of belonging. Yes, we all belong to the world, that is fact. But to belong and to feel like we belong are two separate things. And I, with all my corazon, FEEL like i belong. And that feeling, I guess I could describe it to food. Yeah i'll show you. It will work this comparison. My feeling of belonging feels like when you taste a piece of food, that is so fucking delicious that your jaws tingle and your taste buds start swirling and dancing and you smile. you just s-m-i-l-e. unknowingly at first. But then when you realise you have a great big smile on your face, you keep it on. Because it warms you up like a hot cup of tea. And so this is what I feel like when I belong. When I belong to the ocean, I smile.

And if you haven't noticed yet. I love music. :). I know you're paying attention now. So while I was at the lake i wrote poems, and just lived. I didn't exist. I lived, explored, breathed, and partook in mother nature.

Here's what I wrote:

My soul does not recognise any human touch as it does yours
I do not believe that your palms and soft mountans that reside in your hands could be
could be any more magnificent.
Any feeling more profound than this feeling I'm feeling would be you,
as you are,
times infinity.

And so the only way I can measure your love,
well, it's truly fact that it is innumerable
Your richness and puress of your all forigivn, yet sometimes uncertain love is-
indeed this feeling i'm feeling
times inifinity.

I dare not compare you to a vibrant star
or the moon that clenches the sky tightly.
Because the natural world and you cannot and should not be compared.

Woman you are the branches of our love. You are the expanding roots
You are, unknowingly my natural world.

-Greiby Medina ©2009

My Beach Playlist:

1. Sara Barielles- Gravity (Acoustic)
2. Juanes- Odio Por Amor
3. Gypsy Kings- Sin Ella
4. Ben Harper- She's only happy in the sun
5. Nina Simone- Lilac Wine
6. Selena- Yo fui Aquella
7. Jeff Buckley- Kanga-roo
8. Carly Simon- The Right Thing To Do
9. Dionne Warwick- Alfie
10. Tonic- If you could only see
11. Celia Cruz- Guantanamera
12. Natalie Merchant- One Fine Day
13. Howie Day- Standing in the sun
14. Nada Surf- Happy Kid
15. Missy Higgins- Angela
16. The Rocket Summer- She's my baby
17. Aventura- Pueblo por Pueblo
18. Marisa Monte- Universo Ao Meu Redor
19. The Click Five- Jenny
20. The Kooks- You Don't Love Me