Colin Hay - Beautiful World

LYRICS:

My my my it’s a beautiful world
I like swimming in the sea
I like to go out beyond the white breakers
Where a man can still be free (or a woman if you are one)
I like swimming in the sea.

My my my it’s a beautiful world
I like drinking Irish tea
With a little bit of lapsang souchong
I like making my own tea.

My my my it’s a beautiful world
I like driving in my car
Roll the top down sometimes I travel quite far
Drive to the ocean stare up at the stars
I like driving in my car

All around is anger automatic guns
It’s death in large numbers no respect for women or our little ones
I tried talking to Jesus but He just put me on hold
Said He’d been swamped by calls this week
And He couldn’t shake His cold

And still this emptiness persists
Perhaps this is as good as it gets
When you’ve given up the drink and those nasty cigarettes
Now I leave the party early at least with no regrets
I watch the sun as it comes up I watch it as it sets
Yeah this is as good as it gets.

My my my it’s a beautiful world
I like sleeping with Marie
She is one sexy girl full of mystery
She says she doesn’t love me but she likes my company
For now that’s good enough for me

A poem in August

A Poem in august

LOC: Starbucks, Portland, ME






I reached for my heart at the footsteps of his glittering eyes.
I searched
for so many days and nights
for this profound and delicate feeling
and when my eyelids, damp,
from overflowing water,
squinted tightly--

this is what I see,
this is what I feel:
this is what's delivered to my heart:

My soul reached out to me in a dream
in many dreams, to be quite honest
but my mind shuttered at the thought
and closed out the fearful and intimate feeling of belonging
each time
each time my mind crawled and clawed at this feeling
the feeling of craving to belong,
but each night my soul would reach out to me in a dream.


And Each night I would pray to the Gods above
"Bring me someone, someone who understands my heart."
But the foolish emotions of an old soul trapped in a 22 year old's body
means not to be misunderstood, but is still learning.

Laughter strikes my nerves
crusading through my every heartbeat
Laughter does the opposite than heal me
It mocks my deepest and rarest emotions

When I stop, settle my soul down into the Earth's body
I relax-
I see, I feel, I understand..
so much more
..So much less
but so much differently than before.


Greiby Medina ©2009

Mat Kearney - Closer To Love (Single)

The Kooks - You Don't Love Me (Radio 1's Big Weekend)

Rachael Yamagata interview

:)

Live! Meiko, "Reasons to Love You"

Rachael Yamagata - Be Be Your Love (Pro-Quality)

"...if i could take you away....pretend i was queen.."

A Fine Frenzy: Whisper Live DVD

ahhh :)

ONCE: What does it feel like to be in love?

Just watch... :)

Sensitivity

It was once said: "Sensitivity isn't about being wimpy. It's about being so painfully aware that a flea landing on a dog is like a sonic boom."

I believe so deeply in that quote. I believe so deeply in many things, in many people, but each time I do, each time I love, I forget to love myself. It's not to say that I have poor self esteem, but I question if people love me, my friends, my family. and I question, if they do, why would they? I'm disturbed, and tormented. My image of me is of that anyway. My brain is scattered, my memory at time feels shot, I obsess over small things and it disables me. It stop me from doing this I love to do. I don't like that- i don't want to be like that.

I wish I could talk to somebody about these feelings, someone who isn't my mother, someone who isn't my therapist and someone who isn't my blogspot blank page.

This week has been tough. I feel very much out of control of my own energy, of my own emotions. I am at first able to gather my thoughts, but then when directing at somebody or aiming towards something productive, I shut down. I am human. and with that natural flaw, I allow myself to get upset with people. After a while, you can trust somebody, and trust in them, and trust in what you think they believe in, but when their habits don't change, when they don't reach out to you, when they ignore you and treat you like shit, it's very hard to keep your trust in somebody when they let you down so often. I will say for me though, it doesn't take much to gain my trust, in fact it takes very little. I ask for one thing: respect. but sadly, it takes twice as long for you to gain it back. because you've broken me, and carelessly pounded on the gates of my soul, as if to come in, but to decide to leave without even a note.

I wish people would take the time to read what I say, and maybe they do. But for me, I am not a person who can have deep conversations over lunch with you. I am not socially awkward or anything, but I feel very much out of control of myself when I am not near pen and paper. With pen and paper, I am able to cross out what I say, erase what i say, delete what I say. But when I am in public, it's as if my mouth has no filter. For instance this blog, I am trying to explain to you who I am. I am not trying to "Justify" who I am.

And the more I explain, the more upset the other person gets. The more annoyed he or she gets. and for me, an I, unable to express through words or action, am left here wondering where exactly this started blowing up.

Playlists, on going...

A fine frenzy- whisper

Marketa Irglova- The hill

Glen Hansard- Fallen from the sky

Missy Higgins- The River

Gregory and the hawk- Boats and birds

The fratellis- whistle for the choir

Second hand serenade- Why

Sutton foster- once upon a time

Adele- Best for last

Rachael Yamagata- Be Be your love

Coldplay- Shiver

Cocorosie-Rainbowarriors

Mae- Sun (Acoustic)

Colin Hay- Beautiful World

Elbow- Asleep in the back

Wilco- Red eyed and blue

Au revoir simone- The the backyards of our neighbors

Cocorosie- Teckno love song

Boyce Avenue- Tonight

Feist- Brandy Alexander

Jeff Buckley- Calling You (live)

Spring Awakening- Left Behind

Avant- my first love

IF blogging was my major I'd be flunking

I have a request!

Can anybody give me some insight on how to make my blog ...i dont know.. not boring to look at? any software I should be aware of? I want to post pictures/embed links/etc! help a blogger outt :) Don't worry it won't look anything like yours! My words and thoughts are different, I just want to have the page to be more pleasing to the eye!

Thank you in advance!

What kind of person are you attracted to?

When asked the question, what do you look for in a guy/girl? What is your response?

Here's mine:
love for children, nature, music, emotion. must be kind, open minded, goal oriented, good hearted, aware of others feelings, funny, thinks i'm funny (hey its true ;) ), enjoys new experiences, takes the time to talk to new people, smiles at children, strangers, and cats/dogs. Animal lover, movie-goer, concert lover, conversationalist, deep dialogue, simple words, what's simple is true...and there's a whole lot more. I look for this in people, for friends, for lovers.

Are you out there? You can never have enough friends. I'm here..I'll wait for ya :)

What is kindness?

A lot of time we don't practice kindess as much as we should. And sometimes kindness can be a small gesture. In fact, those are the best kind. Which goes to prove that you don't have to/should not have to think about being kind :)

I know what kindness isn't....

Why are people mean?

People are mean for multiple reasons....As people we are born with emotions, emotions we sometimes have no control over, and emotions when we do control them, still isn't exactly the type of control that is respectful to other people. In other words, we may think we have it in control, but in reality, we hurt people around us. People who make fun of people and mock and put others down, are insecure human beings. Scenario: Think of the happiest person you have ever met/not met/know. Think about their smile, think about their actions towards others. Are they mean? And if they are mean, is there happiness just an illusion? Well- if they are kind and they are happy. Well you better keep that person around. Kind people have no reason to bully other people. What good does that do? kind people like to see others happy because they are happy and wish for others to feel sucha feeling of happiness. And so it makes sense, see? People who are not very nice, wish to see others hurt, and feel the way they do, to lift them up.

There are so many reasons to why they are mean. Or how they become this way. Not to say that they were always mean. in fact, they may not even realise they are being mean. They may be sarcastic individuals. But even with sarcasm, there is an air of bitterness at times. My mama says "If not everybody is laughing, it's not fun for all." so if you make a joke and you leave someone feeling sad, it wasn't really funny now was it? even typing this hurts my heart. I don't know why people treat people the way they do. Its saddening! But!!! I am not hopeless at all! i am hopeful, so very hopeful. Because I know that there are people who are caring, compassionate, giving, open minded, loving, passionate....I know them. And they are my friends and family.


Playlist:

1. Rachael Yamagata- 1963
2. Rachael Yamagata - Ode to...
3. Mat Kearney- Closer to Love
4. Blake Aaron Guthrie- When I Fall (Acoustic)
5. Katie Melua- Closest thing to crazy
6. Vanessa Carlton- White houses
7. CSS- Alala
8. Elevator Fight- Broken Glass
9. Jay Brannan- Lower My Gun
10. Camera Osbscura- you Told a lie
11. Camera obscura- teenager
12. Camera obscura- i don't do crowds
13. Howie day- She says
14. Jack Johnson- Cocoon
15. Cowboy Junkies- River Waltz
16. Maia Sharp - "John Q. Lonely"

Music

My High School Music Teacher (why are these all in capitals, they should be no?), who to me, is/was a genius once said something like this..."Some argue that music is not the notes that are being played, but on the contrary, the silence between the notes." Now, I will never claim to be a philospher, like the girl at my friends birthday party who said, and I QUOTE : "I"M SORTA A PHILOSOPHER" IF SHE WAS ONE? would she not be completely sure of it? But thats the tricky thing with philosophers, they reel you in and make you believe big things, profound things, and then say.. "but i only know i know nothing." then why you wasting my time mang? But seriously. Back to the music...

I have never felt any, any, anyyyy kind of love, and soothing, and comfort more than I do for music. I do love lots of things, I do fall in love with all things day to day. But the one thing i will always know, and always feel profound love for is music. It is the music that releases my suffering. It is the music that is my constant friend. My companion. My soulmate, who does not judge me. Who does not give me bad looks, when I fuck up on something. It is music who holds my hand when I'm scared, and cheers me on when I'm trying to reach a goal. It is music that teaches me, kisses me, loves me, holds me. It is music that surrounds me like a warm familiar breeze. It is music, hand in hand with mother nature, that wraps his/her arms around me, and clenches hard into my soul. Deep inside my soul, to the core of my being. To the core of my existence that even I have not been famiiar with. It is music who knows me through and through. And it knows me the second we meet. and in knowing this, in being assured of this, i will never, ever, eeverrr Be alone.

This past week I have been arriving at the beach in the early morning. Before the morning runners arrive. Before the parking lot is full with cars, bikes, and people. I am there to sit with the Canadian Geese, and I am there to watch the Sun beat in the sky, playing shy behind the clouds. But I want to make sure that anyone reading this recognises I do separate the natural world from music at times. I suppose when I speak about music I should say, not just man made instruments. I speak of the natural world as well. I speak of the sounds of nature. The trees, swaying, flowing, embracing the air with her/his branches. The sounds of a small blue bird picking at his/her food. The sound of the wind, the sound of the ocean colliding with the rocks. The gurgling sound the sand makes when the ocean sinks into it. Those sounds. those sound are music as well. And so- I listen to that music apart from what's playing on my ipod.

A few days ago we went to the Lake. I can't even begin to tell you the serenity. But I'll try! haha! to feel as if nothing, and nobody could ever hurt you. to feel that you would never need to fear that. to feel like you fit in, you belong, hm... we all share that huh? The feeling of wanting to belong somewhere. Well that's the good thing about big bodies of water like the Lake or the Ocean. they speak to us, with compassion and comfort, without judgment, and for those reasons, I can say I feel an incredible sense of belonging. Yes, we all belong to the world, that is fact. But to belong and to feel like we belong are two separate things. And I, with all my corazon, FEEL like i belong. And that feeling, I guess I could describe it to food. Yeah i'll show you. It will work this comparison. My feeling of belonging feels like when you taste a piece of food, that is so fucking delicious that your jaws tingle and your taste buds start swirling and dancing and you smile. you just s-m-i-l-e. unknowingly at first. But then when you realise you have a great big smile on your face, you keep it on. Because it warms you up like a hot cup of tea. And so this is what I feel like when I belong. When I belong to the ocean, I smile.

And if you haven't noticed yet. I love music. :). I know you're paying attention now. So while I was at the lake i wrote poems, and just lived. I didn't exist. I lived, explored, breathed, and partook in mother nature.

Here's what I wrote:

My soul does not recognise any human touch as it does yours
I do not believe that your palms and soft mountans that reside in your hands could be
could be any more magnificent.
Any feeling more profound than this feeling I'm feeling would be you,
as you are,
times infinity.

And so the only way I can measure your love,
well, it's truly fact that it is innumerable
Your richness and puress of your all forigivn, yet sometimes uncertain love is-
indeed this feeling i'm feeling
times inifinity.

I dare not compare you to a vibrant star
or the moon that clenches the sky tightly.
Because the natural world and you cannot and should not be compared.

Woman you are the branches of our love. You are the expanding roots
You are, unknowingly my natural world.

-Greiby Medina ©2009

My Beach Playlist:

1. Sara Barielles- Gravity (Acoustic)
2. Juanes- Odio Por Amor
3. Gypsy Kings- Sin Ella
4. Ben Harper- She's only happy in the sun
5. Nina Simone- Lilac Wine
6. Selena- Yo fui Aquella
7. Jeff Buckley- Kanga-roo
8. Carly Simon- The Right Thing To Do
9. Dionne Warwick- Alfie
10. Tonic- If you could only see
11. Celia Cruz- Guantanamera
12. Natalie Merchant- One Fine Day
13. Howie Day- Standing in the sun
14. Nada Surf- Happy Kid
15. Missy Higgins- Angela
16. The Rocket Summer- She's my baby
17. Aventura- Pueblo por Pueblo
18. Marisa Monte- Universo Ao Meu Redor
19. The Click Five- Jenny
20. The Kooks- You Don't Love Me